My true story of being lost in space — March 2020. I return. A two weeks expedite of my flight ticket. Not a big difference: I was homebound anyway. Avoiding transit through Singapore, they say it’s red zone. I’m choosing a route through Malaysia instead. Bali via Malaysia, to Norway. I arrive at an empty Gardermoen airport. Only the…

You’ve probably heard about the spiritual ego. But do you know the tantric version? — There’s a lot of ego at play in the spiritual environment. And the tantric field — as a spiritual sub-culture if you like — isn’t any different. But the ego expression in the tantric field has its own flavor. I call it: The Tantric Ego Welcome to Angsbacka Tantra Camp (Help!) The tantric ego revealed itself…

Exploring the core of tantra — Last month, I spent a week at a Tantra camp in Angsbacka, Sweden. I went to the festival to see if the tantra field here in Scandinavia is something I want to identify myself with. Cause…. what on earth IS tantra? I wrote an article about the experiences of my…

Trying to figure out what tantra really is — In the end of July, I spent a week alone at a tantra camp. I went there curious to get to know the Scandinavian tantric field, and to explore their approach to this word: Tantra. There are many understandings of what tantra is these days. Whereas I perceive tantra as…

I’ve returned to work after three years in silent meditation retreat — and this is what’s challenging me the most — After spending three years fulltime in the spiritual environment, initially planning to withdraw from everyday life… I woke up one day and felt like something was missing. I loved the peacefulness and tranquility of my meditation retreats. But suddenly, it was as I needed something more. I was curious to…

It made me ponder the pain of starving our souls to death — and what it takes to recover — When I was 22 and a pretty frustrated and confused young woman, a woman my mother’s age handed me “Women who Run with the Wolves” and said: Read it. And I thought no way I will read this incredibly awkward hippie book, and how strange it is that she gave…

Searching for myself at the bottom of the… —

Bursting self-delusions in the spiritual environment — The assumption that our yoga, meditation, cacao ceremonies, women’s groups or spiritual books clubs are in themselves a path of awakening… must be one of the grandest delusions I know of in the spiritual environment. In itself, standing on our heads for ten minutes a day, sitting still in meditation…

I wrote my thoughts after discussing forgiveness with a friend, and I ponder what you think about it too — Last weekend I sat with a friend for tea ceremony, and in between two cups of Bliss Gaba Cha she asked me: What are your thoughts about forgiveness? My friend had moved out of a relationship just a couple of days before, and was concerned with forgiving her ex-partner for…